Lilu-kun

would you give me the chance,
to give you my words?
their not much to hold,
but they're all I am  worth.
all I need is you,
smiling back at me.
all I need is you,
to see me.

Meir words are nothing to this feeling.

A sinking peace.

All breath being ripped away.

And my existence is compressed,
into this form of a lifeless...
shell.

Every thought is poison to my mind.

And trust is something far from said,
when all life is

nothing,

nothing,

but walking dead.

Torn, i look to sit within this
tunnle of space and abyss.

But whispers scream to reach out,
for the hope of a hand.

Today,

my life,

lay in demand.

White.
The painted vial,
taking up the conscious space of my mind.

Blank.
it teases me.
taking every bit of my thoughts; soaking them up
inside this Prism called color.

Walls.
the obstacle between.
blocking any path i have created.

Alone am i between these mighty spaces.

I lay and stare.

My mind,
It suffers this existence.
suffers the chamber of this plain.
suffers in it self.

Can nothing save me from these
White,
Blank,
Walls......

Indigo violet twilight
soft black velvet starlight.
brim stone fire and flame.
clouds putting colors to shame.
one breath of crisp atmosphere.
one reason for still being here.
Heart beating on this rotating sphere.
A wish to exist with nothing to fear.
A lie? A truth? It doth fall beneath.
It squirms and creeps in unconscious state of sleep.
fake or real? the question falls to you.
Mote it be, in dreams, everything be true.
A vision of falling as you look to your name.
sharp black surrounds you wild and untamed.
suddenly light fills your eyes,
what dose it mean?
in this minds labyrinth,
nothing is as it seems.

When he looks at me,
he looks through glass.
He gives that pain filled stare,
and lets the world pass.
And he knows,
nothing is going to be the same.

He just observes the world,
from a different view.
I tried to defend him,
while he spoke about,
what he knows, and,
how no one understands.

Well the years have been rough.
But isn't that how its supposed to be?
So that we can learn?
And make it easy to breath.
But i know its hard too.
When we all forget were not alone.
So let me remind you,
of a time you weren't alone.

We'd stay up late,
side by side on the phone.
We'd share in the company,
and words we wrote.
I'd write you love songs,
you will never hear.
About how i always wished,
you were near.
We'd bath under sun,
and laugh in the shade.
It was easy to be happy,
on those simple days.
We would make promises about,
how we would never let go and forget.
And I swear to you,
Ill never forget.